Being Real.

Okay, it's time for me to be real with you all.

I'm two weeks into the school year and I'm already feel overwhelmed. I'm behind on my reading. I've handed in several papers (albeit small, but still several) already and I'm having a difficult time getting back into shape for writing theology papers (they all seem to come out sounding like sermons or prayers - great for church, not so much for my GPA). It feels like I'm either in class or at work with no time to sit and study during the day - I get home at 7 p.m. and have to start on my work for the next day. I feel like I haven't had a real conversation with Bruce since school started.

I know getting into the rhythm of school isn't instantaneous. I know I just need to have to faith. I know I need to breathe in the spirit and out the stresses and that build throughout the week.

But this is all easier said than done.

My favorite song from the Taize community is El Senyor, In The Lord. I've been singing this to myself whenever I start to feel my anxiety build. In just five stanzas, it delivers one of the most powerful messages I've ever responded to.

In the Lord I'll be ever thankful
In the Lord I will rejoice
Look to God do not be afraid
Lift up your voices the Lord is near
Lift up your voices the Lord is near



Powerful, mighty and forever-guiding God
You called the prophet Moses to lead his people through the desert
Through famine, thirst, fear and barracades you stayed by his side
Be present in my life as I discern my call from You
Release the anxieties brought on by fear of the unknown and of my inadequacies
So that there is room to hear Your voice, to feel Your touch
Together with the voices Isaiah, Jeremiah, Lamentation, Ezekiel and Daniel - those You called before me - I pray this prayer
Amen