Remembering What's Important

After a somewhat stressful weekend dealing with the wedding plans, I've spent part of the day trying to remember what this is all about.  When I close my eyes and take a deep breath I see Bruce's face - not the rest of the drama that is stressing me out.  I started to think about this Faith Hill song today, "Lost."  It just seems to sum up what I need to keep reminding myself.

Lost

Is it obvious to you
When you walk into a room
Your face is all I see
And my heart races so fast
I never knew a rush to feel like that
Everytime you're touching me

I never did believe in anything
I couldn't hold between my fingers
But the way you make me feel
It's just so real the way it lingers

I get lost inside your stare
Lost when you're not there
And everything I have
Doesn't mean a thing if it's without you
If it's a dream
Don't wake me up
I'll scream if this isn't love
If bein' lost means never knowin' how it feels without you
I wanna stay lost forever
I wanna stay lost forever.. with you.

No this feelin' doesn't end
It's with me everywhere I am
Hope it never goes away
It's like defying gravity
I'm losing all control in bein' free
And I always wanna stay

I never thought that I'd let go long enough
To fall for someone deeply
Who had the power to erase my fears
And find me so completely

I get lost inside your stare
Lost when you're not there
And everything I have
Doesn't mean a thing if it's without you
If it's a dream
Don't wake me up
I'll scream if this isn't love
If bein' lost means never knowin' how it feels without you
I wanna stay lost..

Don't tell me where we're goin'
I don't wanna know
I like the mystery
I can't believe we've come this far
So far away from where we started off
You found me when I wasn't lookin'
You found me..

And now I'm lost inside your stare
Lost when you're not there
And everything I have
Doesn't mean a thing if it's without you
Without you..
If it's a dream
Don't wake me up
I'll scream if this isn't love
If bein' lost means never knowin' how it feels without you
Yeah..
If bein' lost means never knowin' how it feels without you
Oh..
If bein' lost means that I'm never gonna be without you..
I wanna stay lost forever..
I wanna stay lost forever
..With you.

Bruce and I have come so far since we first met - both scarred from past relationships, both not interested in meeting anyone, both trying to put our individuality first.  I don't think we said two words to each other that day.  Then we met again ... and we were both in better places.  We happened to strike up a conversation - one that continues to this day.  This is just another part of the journey.  I can't imagine walking it with anyone else.