But ... I learned a lot.
It's a shame that I'm not considering switching to the other section of NT because my GPA can't handle another semester of LTJ. It's a shame that even though I'm learning something the testing is too much that I'm going to need to switch out of the class.
I'm very frustrated. I tried so hard this semester. I don't know what I could have done differently. I'm trying desperately to think of things that I could have done differently but I was just completely over-scheduled this semester. I was doing too much and there were simply not enough hours in the day for me to do everything.
I really need to look at my life and make some changes. I cannot handle another semester of this - especially because I'm going to be completely engulfed in wedding planning.
What can I do? What can I give up? A class at school? No - I want to graduate on time. Work? No - money speaks. Church? Absolutely not - I can't even believe I put that down. Bruce? Oh great, now I'm considering spending less time with my fiance when I already don't spend enough time with him (and we live together!!) Friends & Family? If I have any left - I spent so little time communicating with people last semester that I'm starting to wonder if I'm going to have any friends left.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! ... Why oh why did I decide to come to Candler? Look at what it's doing to me!!!!!
Okay, in the meantime I'm just going to try to relax. There is a Blue Christmas service at church tonight and Kari is coming tomorrow and we're going to bake Christmas cookies on Saturday. Whitney and I having a cookie exchange tomorrow, too!! This doesn't leave a whole lot of time for work but I think I really just need to chill out right now and not be so concerned with working all the time. I know money speaks really loudly, but there comes a point where self care needs to speak louder.
For now - I need to shower and get ready for the day. The youth were putting on a toy drive for MUST and there is some donated money that we need to go spend today so I'm trying to get a group together to do that.
And I'm going to try to not obsessively look for my other grades to be posted.
Try.
Well, that's highly unlikely but how about this - I'm going to try to not obsess about it?
That's more like it.
Love, hugs & peace,
Sarah
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I REALLY struggled with LTJ first semester. I thought his tests were nearly impossible. To me, each answer was kind of right in some way...but there was always a "more correct" one. Whatever! 2nd semester was a little better with paper writing...a LITTLE better. It's a tough class. Hang in there! But you're right....you really learn a lot!
ReplyDeleteSeriously - switch over to Dr. Holladay's class. It's not cake, but easier than LTJ from what I hear. He's a little dry but a nice guy and literally wrote the book about exegesis. Plus, I'm in there :-)
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